Okay let's get right into it... today we are talking about MANIFESTING!
According to dictionary.com, the word manifest means (verb) "to make clear or evident to the eye or the understanding." In the personal development world, the term "I am manifesting XYZ" is thrown around like a ball as if the person is just tossing a desire up into the air and waiting for the physical thing to land back in their hands. But here's the thing, , we are ALWAYS manifesting.
Whether you are filled with good feelings or bad, you are creating your reality around them... so today I want to share this story with you to show you that if you keep yourself open and you release the need to control the timeline, you actually will get exactly what you want.
At the beginning of 2017 I started down the path of complete spiritual and self overhaul. I really wanted to get to know myself better as well as feel aligned with what I TRULY believe and feel connected to spiritually.
I dove into Gabrielle Bernstein's May Cause Miracles workbook and could feel a lot of things shift for me. I started peeling back layers of truth within myself that had been covered for quite some time. I felt really connected to how Gabby taught and presented lessons from the metaphysical text, "A Course in Miracles". I remember having the thought, "I would love to do what she does some day..." but then quickly reminded myself that I have never actually read A Course in Miracles and dismissed the thought.
As I grew in my self-awareness and spiritual practice, I also grew in the application of common sense... aka I didn't have to allow the fact that I hadn't read A Course in Miracles yet hold me back, because the fact is... I could read it at any time. I mean, really though, right?! But how often do we limit our thoughts like this?!
As I had the "duh" moment of this realization I also remember distinctly having the thought that I would really love to have one of "those stories" that you hear about... of the book that changed everything flying off the shelf in the self-help section and landing in front of me. For some reason, adding A Course in Miracles- a text that I wholeheartedly seem to align with, even without having read it yet- to my amazon cart seemed less than sacred... and from a readiness standpoint, in my heart I also knew that when the book presented itself to me, I would KNOW that I was ready.
So, there it is... I laid the frame work. I knew what it was I wanted to enter my life and I surrendered to the Universe that I was not going to force it into fruition for myself. I wanted it, but when I NEEDED it, I believed that God would provide it to me.
Fast forward to last Wednesday. I took my sons to the library for the book sale. I had every intention of grabbing a couple cute kids books and scooting back on home... but of course, I was drawn to the self-help section.
There were some pretty amazing books over there and I was excited. At first, I had no idea what I would find but something felt right. With my 17month old flailing in my arms (there was no way I was putting him down to destroy the place, haha!), I scanned the book titles.
I picked up The Five Levels of Attachment by Don Miguel Ruiz Jr. This is the author of the book "The Four Agreements"... a book that I have started many times but just cannot get through the first chapter on. I thought to myself, "Well, maybe if I get this second book it will incentivize me to finish the first..." (energy thought: forcing)... and I continued scanning .
I found a book entitled something like "How to live out the Teachings of A Course in Miracles"... and my heart leapt.
I heard a voice in my head distinctly say, "You're getting closer!" and in that instant, I knew it was there!
I also knew that I had to let go of the forcing energy that was tied with The Five Levels if I wanted to open myself up to receiving what it is I TRULY wanted... so I laid it down.
And as I laid it on top of the books, there- the first book to the left... the first book that WASN'T covered by the book that had once been in my hand that I LET GO OF- was A Course in Miracles.
I gasped. Picked it up. Started giggling and tearing up all at the same time. And remember, Andrew? My baby who was still going to town in my arms? Yeah, that sweet boy looked at my, laughed, and threw his arms around my neck as if to say, "There you go, Mumma! There it is! You found it! That is what you were looking for all along!"
In that moment I had no idea how that all actually happened but at the same time I knew exactly how it happened.
I had set my intention long ago. I allowed for life and learning to flow around me. I trusted that when the time was right, all that I needed and wanted would be brought to me on God's time. And when I got the inspired sense to search, I followed my intuition and went there.
That, my friend , is manifesting.
I had to surrender the control that I wanted to assert in order to receive what was already available to me.
Had I settled for The Five Levels of Attachment (a book, by the way, that I'm sure is amazing but is just not what my soul feels called to right now...), I would have left the library that day, not only feeling unfulfilled and unmotivated, but having missed an opportunity to bring in what was actually meant for me all along.
So, what is it that you WANT?! Have you put it out there with the intention to make it yours?! Have you surrendered the HOW and stepped back to ALLOW?! These are the steps of manifesting. These are the steps to uncovering truth. These are the steps to allow for self-growth which will ALWAYS lead to miracles.
I hope this message touched your heart today. I hope you feelin inspired. Please feel free to subscribe to receiving my future blog posts via email at www.jillianbolanz.com/empower and forward thisto a girlfriend or family member that will be inspired by it! But mostly I hope that it has now been affirmed for you that this "stuff" works.. if you will allow for it to!
With abundant love and so much good energy,